The End

So tomorrow will be the last day that I will be required to post a daily blog for my journal in my English Composition class at school. I will be happy when I am no longer required to post a daily blog. It has been very difficult some nights to think about something to post about. I have been really challenged to find something to write about on some nights. I may keep posting to this blog after I am no longer required to but I don't know for certain yet. I do know that if i continue to post a blog it will not be a daily event like it has been lately. It may be only once a week or maybe several times a week but I seriously doubt I will continue to post daily. I'm not saying I don't like posting my blog, I just don't lead an interesting enough life to be worth posting about daily. Only time will tell what the future holds for this blog after my journal assignment is completed.

I'm Free

I was organizing my file cabinet the other day and I ran across this poem that I had copied down from somewhere. I know it talks about loss and death but I just thought I would share it.

Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free,
I'm following the path God laid for me.
I took his hand when I heard him call,
I turned my back and left it all.

I could not stay another day
to laugh, to love, to work or play.
Tasks left undone must stay that way
I found that place at the close of the day.

If my parting has left a void,
then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss,
Ah, yes, these things, I too, will miss.

Be not burdened with times of sorrow.
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My life's been full, I savored much.
Good friends, good times, a loved one's touch.

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief,
don't lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your heart and share with me,
God wanted me now, He set me free.

Ex-boyfriend's

My girlfriend's ex-boyfriend is trying to cause trouble between my girlfriend and myself right now and what's worse is that my girlfriend's so called friend is siding with him about this. They are saying alot of lies about our relationship trying to stir things up. I don't believe what they are saying and neither does my girlfriend. The problem is that Jennifer's friend that she is staying with, and is now siding with the ex, has invited the ex to stay with them at the apartment. So now they are teaming together and trying to tell her all sorts of lies about my and the way I am treating her. She knows I am not like that, it's just frustrating that he won't let things go and accept the fact that she doesn't want to be with her anymore. Regardless of whether they convince her that I am not the right guy for her. She still wants nothing to do with him. I swear if I had a vehicle right now I would travel up to Lebanon right now and go get her and bring her back her. I would also take a baseball bat to that idiot of a ex and beat the living crap out of him. Possibly even her friend as well if it wasn't a female. I won't hit a female. I just wish they would leave us alone and let us live our lives in peace. Only time will tell what will happen now.

My Close Friends

Fight Night

Well the Cage fights were tonight and all in all they were pretty good. Extreme Hate Frequency was really good as well. EHF played a full 30 minute set before the fights took place and it was pretty cool. After that there was a color guard to present the flag and have our national anthem sang. Then all the fighters were introduced and only brawl was started during all that. Of coarse as with any type of fighting like this there were the ring girls to announce the different rounds for the fights. Although most fights didn't get past the first round and sometimes even past the first minute. There were 14 fights in all at this event. There was even an intermission after about the 9th fight. During the intermission Extreme Hate Frequency played another 4 songs. I didn't watch the second half of the fighting because my friend and her boyfriend were having some minor issues with each other. So Jennifer and I went out and talked with my friend Danielle until her boyfriend finished up what he was doing with the band. He helps set up and tear down their stage setup. We all sat around talking until he was done and then left. By this time the fights were over as well. After we left we went by Burger King for some food and then Danielle and her boyfriend brought Jennifer and myself back here to my house. All in all we had a really great time and enjoyed ourselves immensely.

Enevitable

Well the worst thing that could happen has happened tonight. Mom's dog Honie was struck by a car earlier this evening. I'm not sure how she managed to get out or how she managed to get free, I just know that it happened. I had gone to the 8:00 pm showing of Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen at the Palace with my girlfriend Jennifer when I receive a call from my sister say that Honie had been hit and they couldn't find her. Jennifer and I immediately left and headed back to the house to help look for her. We were almost home when I receive another call from my sister telling me that they had found Honie. When I get home I found out that she had been struck on the head and was bleeding a little bit around the eyes. My sister got a hold of our vet that we use and was able to take Honie in to see him tonight shortly after we got home. My sister, her girlfriend, and my mom all took her to see the vet. Well in the long run Honie was doing fine and was given several shots to help her out and was sent home with some medication and some cream to put on her as needed. She is now laying with my mom on her bed and resting peacefully. I hope this has scared her enough to not try and run off for a while, but we will just have to wait and see.

Cage Fighting

I have been invited by a good friend of mine to go see some cage fights on Saturday evening. I have decided to go and have in turn invited my girlfriend to go with me and she has agreed. I am also looking forward to hearing the bands that will be playing before the fights as well. They are pretty heavy metal in their music but I like it. I have watched UFC fights on Spike tv before and I really liked watching them, I thought they were pretty cool. I know I could never do that type of fighting but it's still fun to watch. I will also be glad to be able to spend some time with my girlfriend as well. It's kinda hard for us to spend together right now with her still living in Lebanon for the moment and me living here in Springfield. That will change though when she moves down here to Springfield and away from Lebanon. I am glad that we can talk on the phone and text as much as we do though so at least we are still able to stay in contact even when it's several weeks between visits. All in all this weekend promises to be a really fun and exciting weekend. I am really looking forward to it.

"Something from the Heart"

This is a poem that a good friend of mine wrote on facebook. I thought it was a very deep and heartfelt poem, so I thought I would post it here. I was really struck by this poem and loved how my friend poured her heart and soul out in this poem. I am truely honored to have her as such a good friend. I cherish her friendship very much.

Things Aren't always what they seem
But most of the time they are
Time heals all wounds
But what they don't tell you is how long
A week, a month, a lifetime?
For something amazing to happen?
Or when something life altering comes into your presence..
Catastrophic, climatic, contagious
Time does heal wounds
But how long will you wait is the question
And what are you willing to do about it?
What are you willing to give.. to sacrifice for healing?
Will the pain leave in time?
Or do you get so used to pain that it becomes....nothing?
Try this:
Go to your sink and turn on hot water
Make it just barely bearable to touch
Cup your hands and place it under the hot running water
Even though it's hot keep your hands there
Longer...Longer...Longer
Watch the water over flow..seeping through tiny holes your cupped hands cannot cover
Tell me now do you feel pain?
Maybe a little..but not much
Now it's become bearable
Almost comforting..almost soothing
As you watch the once hot water now run over and through your cupped hands
Does time heal pain I ask again?
Time will heals most physical wounds most of the time
A scratch, maybe a few days
Maybe two months for a broken arm
How long for a broken heart?
Will it ever truly be pieced back together?
Or will the tape and glue only last so long?
Can mental pain go away?
Worries, fears, head aches, nose bleeds
or do after a while do worries, fears etc....just go away
You start to have no physical pain..no emotion
No smile..no laugh..just....."blank"
You know those people you look at and you see nothing behind their eyes?
No one is home..no one is paying attention
Am I becoming that?
I cannot smile..it's been taken
I have no hurt..because I have no heart
I don't dare breath..for when I do I fear what might happen next
My phone rings..I don't answer
My computer beeps..I shut it off
The T.V. is on..I turn it off and set in the dark
Stuck in my own thoughts..as my hand moves slowly to my hip
I begin to cry moistless tears..because there are no more in me
No more tears, no more smile, no more feeling
It's been taken from me
I have fallen into a loneliness that no one can get me out of
My friends, my family..they cannot help because I know the truth
I'm a Monster, a villian, a creature, a scary sight inside and out
For any kids parents to see
And that leaves me standing..with half a person beside me
Because it's scared and afraid
Maybe even more so then me for what may come next
What will happen next?
I saw a Husky today in the pet store in Roanoke
My heart cried tears for the future
Not only for the puppy but for mine as well
For in that Huskies eyes was a reflection of my own
The question of what comes next
The fear of what could happen
A small spark left..but not much to keep
The little flame lit for much longer
But yet again no tears could fall from my eyes
There were tears inside where my heart should be
In its place only a puddle of tears for this little puppy & I's future
The worse type of tears, more painful, less obvious
That Husky gave me hope, fear, courage, weakness, & strength all at once
Crazy I know
That particular dog, that type of dog, that dogs eyes
Made me feel a little..I just don't know what yet
I could continue my crazy rambling..but only one will understand fully what I'm saying,
And what I mean and he even might question my random ramble of words
Slowly forming sentences..yet not making sense
Hoping he isn't as scared as me..as worried as me
As full of pain as me..as lonely as me
As.....nothing as I am
He will be fine..I will be fine
After all time does heal all things
And at the end of the night after all has been said and done...all I want is to be told a story as I lay in bed..something original..something new..something I've never heard..something from the heart...

Poem written by Kayla

Fighting

I have decided to keep trying and to keep fighting for what I believe in. I am not sure how long that will last but I am not going to give up at this point in time. Only time will tell how committed I will be able to remain to my chosen path. I managed to write the paper that is due on Monday in my composition class. On the other hand I am in no way closer to getting my literary narrative done now than I was when I first found out about it. This narrative is due on Wednesday and I have no idea what I will write about yet. How do I write about a memory that I can attribute to my current feelings about reading or writing? My memory is sketchy at best and I am being asked to search it for a particular event or attribute. I am lucky if I can accurately recall what I did or felt last week let alone many years ago. I get the feeling that I am going to get extremely challenged with writing by the time this semester is over. I just hope that I can do an adequate enough job to be able to obtain a acceptable grade for this class. I will have to wait and see how things develop and go from there.

Why

This will be a short post tonight. I have been thinking to myself why do I even attempt to do something when I know it's not going to change anything at all. Is there a point to continuing my education when it's not going to do me any good? What am I trying to prove? Why don't I just face facts that I will never be anymore than I am right now? Those are questions I can't answer right now. I do know that I am considering just folding my hand and cashing in my chips now before I end up worse off than I am now. With any luck there will be another post tomorrow evening but as of right now it's not looking very promising.

Invitation

I received an email in my OTC inbox today from Alpha Psi Tau Chapter of Phi Theta Kappa today. I was pleasantly suprised to say the least. I at first thought that the invitation had been sent to the wrong email address. I read through the email several times before I was certain that it was indeed meant for me. I took a look at the criteria that was needed to qualify and realised that I met the criteria. I will still have to submit a completed application along with my membership fee and attend the chapter induction ceremony before I am officially a member but it would be quite an honor if i am actually accepted. I never in my lifetime ever thought that i would be offered a membership like this one, I am extremely honored to have been selected for this honor. I must honestly admit that I know very little about this organization right now but there is an orientation session that I can attend to learn more about the organization. I don't know if I really have what it takes to be a successful member of this prestigious organization but if accepted I plan to do everything in my power to not let that organization down at any time. All I can say for now is that only time will tell how things will develop for me in the future and it will be interesting to see how it goes.

Roaches

We have had a cockroach infestation in our house ever since we moved into this house from our previous house in 2002. My step-father was not a very neat or organized person when it came to cleaning house, although his house was the type of house that was great for breeding cockroaches. The roaches had managed to completely overrun his house by the time we were forced to move out. Needless to say in the process of moving from that house to this house the cockroaches were transplanted as well. Which means we have been trying to eliminate them from this house ever since. We have tried every method there is under the sun to try to get rid of them and have been unable to do so. Well a couple of months ago we began receiving services from Terminex pest control. They have been out to our house about every 2 weeks since they started spraying different chemicals and laying bait traps to attempt to eliminate the roaches. We have cleaned the house of dead roaches and residue several times in the past month or so. We had a scheduled appointment for treatment today to continue to eliminate the roaches. I had noticed in the past week or two that my file cabinet that I have in my room had a good amount of roach activity lately. When the Terminex worker looked at my cabinet he said my cabinet was a nest for the roaches. I was so thrilled to learn this information when he told me. Needless to say we took that cabinet outside and pulled out the drawers and every file and sprayed down the entire cabinet with contact spray for the roaches we saw. Afterwards he told me I would need to clean the entire cabinet with bleach water to get rid off all the dead roaches and feces residue that was still there so that other roaches would not feed on that. He told me I would have to replace every file folder and hanging file folder in my cabinet as well. So I had to go to wal-mart and buy new hanging file folders since I already had new file folders. I cleaned all the dead roaches and residue out of the files and threw away the hanging folders and now those files are sitting in a stack in my room waiting for me to transfer all my files over to the new file folders tomorrow. So all in all I had a really really fun day today after learning that I had been harboring a roach nest in my file cabinet. I just hope that all the cleaning I did today will help eliminate the roaches in the future though. Only time will tell.

Accepted

I went for my appointment at the Vocational Rehabilitation Services on Monday and received some good news. I was informed that I qualified to receive their help with paying for school and finding a job. They told me that since I had verification that I was receiving Social Security Disability it would not take very long to get the ball rolling for me. I was told that I would receive the acceptance letter within a week and that I was already placed on a waiting list to get help with services. I was informed that I would most probably be on this waiting list for about a month and a half. At that time I would be contacted by their office to start the process of helping me out. I was informed that they would only be able to either receive help in paying for my schooling or assistance in finding a job but not both at the same time. Granted I will be able to receive help finding a job after I have finished my schooling though since it will still fall within the same goals plan that we will work up. I am excited to be able to get this help to accomplish what I really want to do. I just know that I will be happy to finish school in the next few years and then start the road down my chosen career path in an effort to accomplish my dreams and goals. I am fully aware that it will still take at least 2-3 years before I am even close to being out of school and then I have to start at the bottom of the ladder for the career that I want. I am willing to make all this effort in order to do something that i really want to do.

Being Sick

I woke up this morning feeling extremely under the weather. So much so that I ended up throwing up because of how severe my coughing got. I managed to get myself together and was able to take my mom to her doctor's appointment. Even though we ended up being late to her appointment she was still able to be seen and get what she needed to get accomplished done. After her appointment we went to George's Restaurant and got some food where she said we would go get some cold medicine for me after we left. Now the biggest problem with taking cold medicine is that with me being on the bi-polar medication that I am on is that I can only take certain cold medicine. One of those happens to be Claritin-D which is not the cheapest medicine out there but it won't adversely affect me like some others would. After we finished eating we went to Wal-mart and picked some up and then proceeded to head home. We both laid down and took naps after we got home due to either not feeling well or still feeling groggy from the pain medication that was given at the hospital. Later in the evening Colleen and I went and picked up my nephews so that my brother could go do the paper route since at that time is seemed that Tracie had just up and left without telling anyone where she was going. I later came to find out that she was there at the house but seemed to be hiding for some odd reason. But I won't go into detail about that for personal reasons.Needless to say my nephews are at my mom's house with us again spending the night and staying for an undetermined amount of time, but that is ok with me since I love spending time with them.

My Nephews

Newspapers

So it's 10 minutes until Midnight and I am about to log onto this site so that I can post my blog for the day and my sister comes into my room. She asks if I would be willing to run my brother's paper route for him tonight. I of coarse agreed to do it, and my dad said he would ride along with me to help out. It seems that the ride along that was suppose to ride with my brother backed out at the last minute which meant that my brother's girlfriend needed to ride with Daniel on the route that he was doing for a friend instead of running Daniel's route for him. My dad and I both thought that it would be better if one of us rode with Daniel on his route and if Tracie would ride with the other one on the other route. But she didn't seem to want to do it that way. So in the end the 2 route experienced drivers left together and the 2 that had only a little route experience rode together. Fortunately I had rode along with Daniel and even drove most of the route enough to remember the gist of where I needed to go. Tracie did our paperwork for us and dad was able to understand enough of that to be able to allow us to deliver the required bundles with relative ease. All in all we did a pretty decent job of getting the bundles delivered to the route drivers at their designated drop locations at a reasonable time with very few complications. So now here it is almost 5 am and I am finally posting my blog and going to bed only to have to get back up at 7 am in order to go to classes later this morning. I'm glad I was able to help with delivering the papers but I get the feeling that today is going to be a very long day and that I will probably end up taking a nap this afternoon after I get back home from classes and my appointment at Vocational Rehab.

Children

I had the privilege to watch my friends 3 children tonight and I was glad I did. I had a great time with these kids and they really love spending time with me as well. the 2 girls had a blast hanging around me and joking and playing around, while the young boy spent most of the evening playing video games in the front room. The girls and I would go outside every now and then and they would ride their bikes and scooters while I stood around and watched and even joined in playing with them every now and then. We even drew a hopscotch grid on the driveway even though I messed up with the order that they were suppose to be drawn in, which is not surprising since hopscotch was a game I hardly played growing up. Their Grandma came by in the afternoon to take the girls to a Japanese festival here in town for a few hours leaving just the boy and I by ourselves for a time. We ordered some pizza and cheese sticks and spent that time on the internet and playing video games until the girls returned. The girls had a great time with their grandma at the festival and even brought home some drawing that they had done there. The youngest girl passed out on the couch a short time later while the older 2 noticed that I was playing a game on myspace and came over to watch me play that for a while. They were very curious about that game and another game that I was playing on the website and asked me many questions about how it was played and they caught on really quick to the rules of both games. Shortly after that the younger girl curled up and fell asleep in a recliner and the boy went back to playing his video games until it was time for him to go to bed. All in all we all had a really great night and it makes me very happy that I get along with kids really well and that most of the time they will listen to what I tell them when I have to get on to them, which with these 3 was not very often. I have always loved kids even though I have never been blessed with any of my own yet. I guess it's because I will always be a kid at heart myself, but that doesn't mean I don't know how to be a stern adult when I have to be. One of the greatest things I have learned over the years when i have to discipline a child is to never yell or get angry at the child no matter how unruly they become but to calmly talk to them in a civilized manner. That is one thing that a lot of parents seem to have forgotten how to do these days, they are so quick to fly off the handle and yell and scream at their kids that they do more damage than if they just talked to their kids. I admit I do sometimes get angry but I make sure to never take it out on the kids in any way because that just defeats the purpose of discipline in the first place. I truly hope that some day I will be blessed with being able to have kids of my own that I can raise to carry on my family name and ways. Until that time I will enjoy spending time with my nephews and watching my friends kids whenever I am needed.

9/11

Today marks the 8th year since the tragedy that happened in New York City. I can still remember being woken up by my step-father to come down and witness the tragedy that took place on this day 8 years ago. At that time I was working third shift at the Steak-n-Shake on South Campbell and I didn't really appreciate being woken up like that but later after I had gotten some more sleep and was fully able to dwell on the events that had transpired I was very glad to be an American. I felt proud for the men and women that risked their lives to help others during the aftermath of what had happened. I am also proud that my sister proudly served in the Navy at that time and was deployed several times into the middle east in retaliation to what had happened. I don't think I will ever forget what happened that fateful day so many years ago, and I am still very proud to be an American. I will never stop being proud of being an American and I know there are many more people like me in this country. United we stand forever strong, divided we fall broken. I feel very strongly that this country will always stand united against whatever may rise up against us and attempt to tear us down.We have been and always will be one nation under God no matter what the rest of the world may throw our way. God Bless the U.S.A.!!!

The Price of Working Too Much

So I have a close friend that lives south of Wichita KS. that I have know for many years. I met her before she even met her current husband and they have been together several years now. I was talking to her tonight and she was telling me how the strain of her husband working so many hours at his job was starting to take a toll on their home life. He is working so many overtime hours that he never seems to have any time to help out around the house or with their kids anymore. I know that most men like to be able to provide for their families but at what cost. Is working so many hours just to be able to provide for the family such a good thing when it costs being able to spend quality time with that family. What happens when you lose that family because you were never around when that family needed you the most. It just seems that sometimes compromises must be made when it comes to working or the end cost may be more than is bargained for. I firmly believe that a man should be able to provide for his family but he must not work so much that he neglects that same family in the process. If that happens then what is he really working for? For his family that he never sees anymore? There must always be a limit that a man is willing to never cross when it comes to his family but lately it seems that many men seem to neglect their families by trying so hard to provide for them. Is this really what we want to teach our children? I hope not for our children's future's sake.

Vampires and the Grim Reaper

So in class today we had to do some writing that wanted us to loop our thoughts starting with the main focal point of fear. Somehow my writings managed to deal with the Grim Reaper and with Vampires. Both of these characters interest me greatly although I don't know exactly what it is about the Grim Reaper that fascinates me so much aside from the fact that it coincides with my fear of death. Now vampires on the other hand have always fascinated me for as long as I can remember. Count Dracula, Lestat, Nick Knight, Lord Byron and Seline are just a few of the characters that I have either read about or seen in movies or television shows that deal with vampires. I have always been intrigued with the thought of living forever and never growing old. The only drawback that I would forsee would be the drinking of blood in order to survive. I'm not sure if I could actually take another persons life in order for me to survive. I think I would probably drink the blood of animals to survive instead. I can see myself as being a kind and noble vampire who is interested in obtaining vast stores of knowledge over time and using it for good. I would love to be a vampire like Blade from those movies in which I have the ability to walk in the daylight and not be hindered by the sun. I guess he would be the best example of the kind of vampire that I would like to be in that he has all the vampire strengths and none of their weakness's. I know that it is not humanly possible for this to occur but I would love to become a vampire and live the rest of eternity never growing any older than I am right now.

Sleepless in Springfield

So what do you do when you lay in bed tossing and turning trying to fall asleep but unable to do so? Well in my case I call up my girlfriend and talk to her for about a half hour or so and while I am on the phone with her I realize that I forgot to post my blog for the night so here I am at ten minutes past one drinking sweet tea and smoking cigarettes posting my blog for Tuesday night. For all intents and purposes I should have been asleep at least an hour and a half ago but I'm still awake and I am sitting at my desk in front of my laptop once again. I could spend an entire day in this chair on my laptop just playing around and not get anything productive done at all. Which I'm sorry to say sometimes happens but not very often since I have started my new semester of classes at school. The good news is that I believe we have finally gotten all the rearranging done that we had planned to do and everything is now moved to where we wanted it to be moved to. I even straightened up my room a little and put some things away that had been just lying around for some time now. So now with the day at an end I need to just finish the cigarette that I am smoking, drink the tea in my glass and lay down and try to get some sleep so I'm not trying to sleep during class tomorrow. With that being said I'm going to draw this post to a close and bid you all a good night and sweet dreams.

Labor Day

So for my labor day holiday I continued to help my sister remodel the kitchen and clean the living room. At the same time I managed to complete my entire Business Math test review, Do 3 loads of my laundry (I do my own laundry), help watch my nephews Gregory and Geoffry who spent the day over here (actually Gregory was over here since yesterday evening), rearrange the garage to make room for a desk we are taking out there tomorrow, all while getting online and playing around on the various websites that I am a member or as well at times. Trisha and Colleen managed to get the kitchen completed with the new linoleum today. Tomorrow we will be taking the old desk to the garage and rearranging the living room a little more. We won't have my nephews tomorrow either since they were taken home earlier tonight, so that will make things a little easier. Don't get me wrong I love spending time with my nephews but with Geoffry being only 4 months old and Gregory being 2 yrs old they demand attention quite often. I will be working on the paperwork that I will need to take with me for my interview at Vocational Rehab. tomorrow as well as calling a couple of my professors from last semester to pick up some certificates that I earned last semester but was unable to pick up until this semester. In the morning though I will be taking my mom to an appointment that she has to go to and then take her to work before I start anything else for the day. Tomorrow promises to be a very interesting day.

Remodeling

My sister and her girlfriend made a trip to Home Depot or Lowes or somewhere like that today and picked up some supplies to remodel the linoleum floors in our house. We will be replacing the flooring in the kitchen, laundry room and bathroom with this new tile. They also picked up a unfinished hollow door that we placed on top of one of the dressers in mom's room and turned it into a decent size desk top that we could fit her cctv on as well as her computer monitor and cpu and still give her room to write as well if she needed to. Trisha has already pulled up the old linoleum from the laundry room and laid down the new tile in there and I must say it looks really nice with the new tile. The bathroom won't be so bad since it is rather small and not much is on the floor in there but the kitchen will be a different story all together since we have the fridge, and a table with benches, a microwave stand, and a couple of shelves in there that we will have to find room for when we tear up the old tile and lay down the new tile. I think we will be able to manage it though with little difficulty it will just be interesting to see how it all turns out. I am really looking forward to seeing what the floors will look like after all the new linoleum tile has been laid out. The cool thing about this tile is that is is in square tiles that if they ever get ruined or anything then we can just pull up those particular tiles and replace them instead of having to replace the entire floor again. I think that will be very useful in the future especially with our dogs in the house. Only time will tell though.

Dogs

So my sister was in the process of grilling chicken for dinner tonight and one of the times that she went to go out the front door Honey and 'Lil Bit just bowled her over and made a break out the front door. The bad part about this is that when both dogs get loose they will not come back on their own we have to go track them down and catch them. Of coarse supper was in the process of being fixed and we had both of my nephews at our house as well. Gregory was outside with my sister driving his little toy car that he likes to drive and Geoffry was in my room with Jennifer and myself when this all happened. Fortunately Jennifer was willing to watch Geoffry and Colleen came outside to keep an eye on Gregory while Trisha and I tried to catch the dogs. I tracked these dogs a block south and about 4 blocks east of our house before my sister was able to join me in catching them in her car. We finally managed to corner them in a blocked in driveway of somebody's house a short time later. Needless to say that when we got them home we placed them in the small metal kennels that we have for disciplining them when they get out like that for a short period of time to try and teach them not to run off. What makes this escape that they did tonight so bad is that they bowled Trisha over to get out the door. They managed to knock her completely off her feet in the process. They go outside all the time but I guess they don't like the fact that they must be put on leads when we take them outside and love to run wild every chance they get. We wouldn't even put them on leads if we could somehow manage to train them to not jump the fence and run away every time that they get out. I wish I knew what I could do to get them to stop jumping the fence and running away so that we could leave them off their leads and allow them to be able to roam the entire backyard instead of just a portion of it.

Wrestling

So I'm a big WWE wrestling fan. I watch RAW on Monday nights and ECW on Tuesday nights and Superstars on Thursday night along with TNA wrestling on Thursday nights and Smackdown on Friday nights. Well for the past 2 weeks Smackdown has been preempted by some religious programing on the channel that it is suppose to air on here on the Springfield cable company causing me to miss the show for the past 2 weeks. Now this wouldn't be so bad if not for the fact that my tv stopped working in my room several weeks ago and I have been unable to watch my wrestling shows on other tv's in the house because they are used by other family members. On top of that one of my favorite wrestlers the Undertaker is on Smackdown making it really disappointing that I have been unable to watch Smackdown since getting a new tv for my room. Granted I can log onto the WWE website and get updates about what is going on with the matches while the show is going on but it's just not the same as watching it on tv. I hope that I am able to watch Smackdown soon because I really enjoy it. If it comes down to it though I will send an email to the WWE company and also my local cable company asking them why I am unable to watch Smackdown on the channel that it is listed to be on. I hope by sending those emails that this issue can be resolved.

Vocational Rehabilitation

So I'm walking out and about town today with my girlfriend. Picking up applications for her at various hotels, dreaming about various trucks at various car lots that I will probably never ever be able to afford in my lifetime, looking at all the new releases at blockbuster, going to the bank. Things like that when as we are leaving the Great Southern Bank on Kearney across from the Baptist Bible College I happen to mention to Jennifer as we are passing the Vocational Rehabilitation office that is next to the bank that I have been meaning to stop in there and see if they could help me out. She says well we have the time right now so why don't you just go in there right now and find out.Well that shut me up real quick and we went inside and I talked to them about getting me some help with getting a job and helping pay for my schooling that I am currently doing. It was pretty easy process to do and I'm kicking myself for not starting this process sooner. They took down my information about myself and my condition that qualifies me for their help, set me an appointment to see one of their counselors and that was it. Now I have an appointment to see this counselor a week from Tuesday and it only took about 10 minutes to complete. It's amazing how many things we put off doing because we think that it will be too difficult to do when in reality it may only take 10 minutes and a little information and it's done. I keep wondering how things would be different if I had taken the time to do this several years ago. I could already be done with school or very close to it and be working at a job somewhere making a decent paycheck and possibly even be off Social Security Disability entirely by now but that is not the case. It just makes me think that we should never put off until tomorrow the things that we can get done today because tomorrow may end up being several years worth of time before you finally get around to doing it.

The Joys of Owning Pets

So this morning I wake up to find out it's raining even though when I looked at the weather last night it showed me that it wouldn't rain until the evening time today. Oh well lol. Anyway my mother's driver had come by to take my mom to a couple of doctor's appointments that she had to go to today and they offered to give me a ride to school since my car is broke down at the moment. That was all fine and dandy but as my mom was walking out the front door her boxer/beagle mix who we named Honey Dew managed to sneak out the front door and her sister 'lil bit almost managed to sneak out as well. Now the good thing about this is that Honey will eventually come back and scratch at the front door when she has exhausted herself and is ready to come back indoors. If on the other hand her sister has gotten out it would take forever to get her back into the house again. Once she gets loose she runs forever and ever. Anyway Honey got out and I informed my sister's girlfriend that she had gotten out because the rest of us had to leave and couldn't stay to coral her. This was all fine and dandy until we started to drive away and Honey saw the car and started to chase behind it. So we stopped and tried to coax her into the car but that didn't work, then we decided to return home and she if she would follow us there. Well that sort of worked, she got near the house but wouldn't go inside yet. I went inside to get a leash and see if I could grab her but that didn't work either, since anytime I would get close to her she would dart off again. Both she and her sister love to play a cat and mouse game with us letting us get close enough to almost grab them and then dart off again. It's very frustrating sometimes. Anyway I couldn't catch her and finally just had to let her run loose and hope she went home on her own otherwise everyone was going to be late to where they needed to be. The good thing was she didn't follow us when we left this time. When I got home from classes at around 12:45pm I noticed that my sister's girlfriend Colleen had managed to convince Honey to go back into the house because she was laying on the couch when I walked in the door. The only bad thing about both Honey and 'lil bit running loose like that is that both my mom and myself are worried that one day they will run in front of some car speeding down the road and get killed like their sister did many months ago. We are just fortunate that something like that has not happened yet and we hope it never does. But with these two rambunctious dogs you never can tell though.

The Beginning

So this is the first of many posts that I will be making to fulfill my requirements for my Eng 101 class at OTC. I will be hard pressed to come up with things to talk about at first since my life is pretty uneventful for the most part. lol. At any rate I will do my best to post whatever comes to mind or whatever may be happening to me that day or something to that effect. Take today for instance, I spent 75% of my day today online playing around on the various websites that I am a member of: Myspace, Facebook, MyYearbook, and Tagged. The other 25% of my day today consisted of creating this blog page and doing my required homework for my Business Math class. I spent various times of the day on the phone with my girlfriend and other friends or when I was not talking to them on the phone I was texting them lol. I would love to be able to get out of the house more but seeing as my car is broke down at the moment and I have very little money to do anything it's kind of hard to accomplish this. Granted I can ride the bus to most places that I would really want to go to but most of the places or activities that I would like to do require income that I do not currently possess at this time. I'm just lucky that i have a cell phone plan that allows me to call or text anyone any time that I want as well as wireless internet at home and a pretty decent cable set up at home that I can keep myself entertained when I'm not doing homework for school or something like that. I think I have rambled on about everything enough for one day. Besides if I say too much here and now I will have a hard time expanding on all of this at a later time lol.